Blueberry sunflowers.

You know a bunch of bullshikas when you see them. They're IN DENIAL, DESPERATE and most important of all PATHETHIC.

Its a sad sad day for blueberry sunflowers.
Im sorry. I just feel like saying that. I dont know the meaning of blueberry sunflowers. Nor do i know that they cant be enjoyed on a sad sad day. It just popped into my awesome head, and it sounded cool, so i typed it out with glee.

Im at it again. Snooping into people's business. Why do i do that. Why the fuck do i have to be so fucking KPO. Why cant i mind my own business? Do i really have to go around and be bitchy and comment on every single detail?
Well SoR-Ree if im the pathethic one here. I just cant help myself.

But no worries. I halted myself before i went deeper. I have self-control too you know. All i need is a wake-up call, which i gave myself of course.. and i'll be fine and dandy. Dont worry about me. I'll just go get my peas and carrots.

Oh My GOD. Why am i so FAT. URGHHHH.

I am utterly sick of things disappearing around the house especially when i know who took them.
Its those things that are valuable but you put in your drawer or cupboard for safekeeping and you forgot about it for a couple of weeks and then suddenly... poof. Toyol curik.
My black bangle. That one that has embossed flower patterns on it. Gone. And that is not something i forgot for a couple of weeks even. I dont really wear accessories. So i put this special one somewhere where i can check everyday that its there cos i know its steal-prone. Everysingleday ok i check. Then suddenly the next day its gone, and no one owns up.
My ezlink. That still has got $50 in it cos i tend to top it up to a hundred everytime. Seriously. Gone. In. The. House. Amazing. Theres a huge difference between i dropped it somewhere outside, and i dropped it in the house. And i definitely did not misplace it. No such thing as the word misplaced in this situation.
And then today, i forgot everything about bebe's bluetooth headphones. I was sure that i gave him back but he said he didnt have it with him. And last i checked my room, i dont see any headphones. Which can only mean one thing right. Its not just some crap philips headphones. Its still $60. Still money.

I am seriously FUCKING SICK of things being toyol-ed and i really cant find anything big enough that can fit in my cupboard slot that can be locked. I bought a lock last year but it broke.. probably some shitfucker tried to break in... so i went easy and just let it be.. until.. a couple of other things went missing also.

LOOK, i dont mind or care so much if things go missing. But things that are sentimental and of value that i really point out and made sure the whole house receives my announcement... its just breakdown-ish if they went missing.

After today, i am definitely checking everyfuckingday whether the ring bebe bought for me is at its place. I dont think she even cares that bebe bought it for my birthday or what. She's still gonna take it and then try to deny it all along the lines of.. she's not sure whether that was hers or mine.. which is usually not cos we totally own different things altogether. She is that stupid lame considering she's a teacher and studying in SIM.

SIM my ass. I can study there if i want to just gimme the goddamn money. Bitch. She's got the most ugliest boyfriend by the way who looks like he's a retarded goat cos of his retarded goatee. I hope he beats her up. Thats what their kind do. I hope one day if they ever get married.. which i dont think they will anytime soon seeing that he's already having fun banging her smelly private stash now and then at his house..... he'll beat her up and literally step on her head until it bleeds. Yeah. Bleed. Literally bleed. I want to see blood. I'd be so happy.

I dont care if she dies. I dont care if she drop dead. I dont care if she got hit by lori taik or her body got flattened by a steamroller. I dont care if her boyfriend beats her cos he's already a loser for dating her cos she's so smelly and disgusting. I dont care if she doesnt get her pathethic SIM diploma. I dont care if she doesnt give my mum money. I dont care if she takes my things.
Reallly. i doont. Cos karma will works its way into her smelly and berkurap genitilia and then eat her up like some crazy exorcist movie.

Sometimes i imagine things like.. one day i'll get into an argument with her.. and then we fight.. and then i end up kicking her ass.. and she'll bleed to death.
AWESOME. Really awesome movie that would be. And i, Huda Anak Kosaini, will be recognized for her heroic duties by saving the family from more bullshit and smelly armpits, cos i totally rule.

But yeah.. its still same old same old.
DIE BITCH DIE.

Something bad is brewing at our SBs of One Fullerton. At the moment i can only worry. But otherwise worrying is as helpful as not being able to do anything about it.

I can only guess the aftermath, but i hope things will settle down well.

And you. You lying, manipulative, sly, sneaky shit of a bastard that you are. How dare you. I tried to think positive and be optimistic in your decisions. But i can only come to one conclusion. That in any situation. Any.
You can do so much as to chim it all out using your useless mouth yang busuk penuh dgn taik tu, but you do nothing. The Yapping Yak has no actions to prove his words. Its your bare hands and bullshit words thats killing everyone but you put the blame on others.
And me. What the hell are you doing with me. Beating around the bush with your philosophies. You'd think im on your side? Are you seriously kidding me? Dont you even have balls to reason out problems with your partners? You have to go through me to make everything neutral for you? Fuck. Off.

I just wanna go to work and have fun. Thats it. And most important of all, being able to bring back money for my mum. I dont care about YOU or your monyet theories, or your bullshit talk about who hates you and who dont.

You know i dont see myself going anywhere with this kind of bullshit environment. By the end of the year or early next year i'll still be at OF of course but im definitely taking up another job. Seriously i dont neeedddd all this crap when i have MORE important serious crap to handle.

MEMOIRS OF A GEISHA ROCKS BALLS!

Yeah so the geishas in the movie were chinese. SO WHAT! Zhang Ziyi rocks balls with the grey-blue eyes! Wish i have those eyes... enchanting!
Gong Li too. I especially LOVE her in Curse of The Golden Flower. That movie rocks my smelly socks!

Ok so, gonna get ready for work now. And we have one more day to CHALET GUYS. *whistle balls*

Other than that bebe bastard me yesterday. HEHE. He sleep never wake up. He was suppose to start teaching me keyboard. But its okeh BEBE i see you on thursday! Muacks!

With Amin & Azryl later. ROCK BALLS!

Thai grilled prawns.. sedap gile.

This month im putting the rock on hold and enjoying alot of others. i really like miley cyrus's The Climb and though i find taylor swift's Love Story so-so, i really love the duet she did with Def Leppard with the song. Also, whose not to love your minah soulja boy song and i love me some chris brown now and then.
If i find a paticular song so-so, i'd look for people doing covers on Utube. Sometimes they actually sang it better and its refreshing to hear a different rendition with their own twists. Thank god for Utube catcher.
Today i got a bit whiny at work. But my head was really bursting into flames. After fiq's extra panadols i got better and then started being crazy with yayan and arepo. 3 partners on floor on a thursday night is sah-weet geng.
Chalet is nearing (omg tak sabar yak allah weehoo yeay2) and i still havent buy alot of stuff. But by this time now i decided to give it a go-with-the-flow bcos i have other things in mind to think about and just wanna haf fun on that day cos that is the most important thing geng - fun.
Other than that im giving myself till december to decide whether i should get another job and make money first before settling down. Its going to be tiring as i foresee it (chey mcm paham) but with qualifications like mine, i have no choice. Smart way or the hard way geng. Singapore ni kalau kau tak migrate kau tak akan kaya. Haha. I think.

Okeh so.. a month ago i blogged about trying to watch the food that i eat. And i kind of failed. HAHA. Cos the main important thing is to not eat prawns, which my yuyul fitri kept scolding me everytime she saw me trying to sneak the thai grilled prawns into my mouth nyeheh.
But this month i lost a total of 4kg without eating rice and fast food. Well it'll be a lie that i didnt eat rice at all. Its not difficult to avoid rice. Its just that sometimes there is nothing - and i mean nothing - to eat at home so i had to eat rice. And i ate a couple of sushis (aku suke sushi gile babat) here and there, and nampak sah sushi tu made of rice, takkan made of organic soy tahu kan. I did try to avoid chicken and prawn, chicken is ok.. its just the prawn part. PRAWN SEDAP SEY. Machamane nak avoid! HAHA.
I also lessen my food intake and if i could chuck 3 plates of rice before, i now sometimes cant finish a meal. Yeah its not healthy at all actually. And i dont even excercise. Yes i am a lazy baby elephant i agree. Though i dont feel.. great.. i felt good.. though 4kg isnt much actually. I can always gain 4kg in half an hour if someone suddenly decided to offer to treat me to Sakura Buffet (did somebody say sushi?) which i absolutely love to death.
But undeniably i would love to lose a few more, so this month im ditching my ice cream (yes everytime buy at 7 eleven cornetto aku takkan lepas), my chocolate and lesser suppers. Like i said, i can just say but who knows tomoro i'll be tucking in one whole tub of Ben & Jerrys. So lets see how it goes.
And yeah im still scratching like a monkey. NO PRAWNS HUDA PLEASE.
Eh tapi chalet ade prawns kan nanti! Okeh last last last. Sumpah! Last!

HAHA.

Good night guys. Love you all.

And you too bebe!

Bye.

i feel better now. i feel more relaxed. actually im forcing myself to be relaxed. i dont want to endanger myself with more stress. please huda.
i wish i have one more mc for tomoro. i really dont feel like working. i dont feel like being at home either. i wana sit sumwhere and just be stress free. preferably with bebe. so i can sit and talk nice stuff with him like his stars and his universe. i love it when he talks about those kind of stuff. i miss you bebe. ive been thinking about you the whole day.

thank u yan, fiq and sani for helping me yesterday. the pain. omg. was so so so unbearable. pls god dont let me experience that again. i do not wish to go thru that kind of torture anymore.

and today. well, today. whatever. i think everyone is pretty fucked up and they can all go fuck themselves. like seriously fuck off from my face, my sight, my fuckin area and my fuckin space. you're not helping at all. so fuck the flying fuck off from my fuckin face you fuckin understand. and dont you fuckin dare talk to me all of you, bcos im not going to talk to you either you fucked up shit all of you.

and if tomoro, anyone fuckin dare make me angry i swear to fuckin god i will fuck them up till they fuck themselves up until they theyre so fucked up.

its 1.02am. i really dont feel like sleeping. i dont feel like waking up at 4.30am. i dont feel like working till 4pm. i really really need some good rest. omg. pls. pls pls.

good nite huda.

More silat for you bebeh.

Found it! Another long lost silat video.
1st performance is my Nana with her kipas awesomes. Yes nana is a girl, mya. Haha.
and the 2nd coming from the right (yg nanti pekik 'Oi Sini!') is my Sofi with his awesomeness.



Today im on OFF. *joget spider*

Gona go get ready for work. FRIDAY here i come. You bastardly crowd! I will SURVIVE you FRIDAY!

HAHA.

When actually im dead scared. But what to do geng. Work is work.

But. Ive been thinking about work lately... lets see what happens.

I need to talk to bebe anyway.

Bye. TGIF definitely not for me. Cos saturday crowd is going to swarm me with their shit.

nana with the kipas awesomes.

i wish abang and nana could still stay cos they were so good.

One more step to screaming myself to insanity.

Numero Uno. Meeting sucked hairy sweaty smelly balls.

Shouldnt have done that meeting. A complete waste of time! Partly (probably...) bcos i didnt speak well enough cos my english suck balls so i didnt really get to project the objective of the meeting. And partly bcos i didnt prepare well for the response. But mostly.. (92% mostly) its because of the annoying QA and the person who keeps yapping about it.

QA QA QA QA QA. FUDGE THE QA LAH. I dont give a moschino cherry fudge AT ALL.

Numero Dos. The chalet.

SOOOO many things to buy for the upcoming chalet. And my OCD comes in during times like these and i want everything to be bought, to be perfect and best of all to be as CHEAP as possible. Well, cheap but good.

and Tres. My bedroom is hopeless! Hopeless gile geng!!!!

I badly wanna clean up this room. Tapi nanti berserak balek arh. Semer pasal si porkchop tu. She will say thanks if i spring clean the room (including throwing away half of her stuff). But THANKS JE BUAT APE. Thanks, but never maintain it, what the FUDGE for kan? Its like, seriously useless, hopeless, brainless lah tu clean up. URGGH. Mcm nak jerit sampai tekak aku pecah siak.

Can someone PLEASE marry her?! Urrrghghhh.

Tomoro ikea with adek and bob.

Thank god for OffInLieus.