Loser.

Work is ok these couple o' days. Today closing with fiqo.

I was cleaning up the pastry case when i heard someone like half-whisper... "nunu.... nunu.."
I looked around for the voice, then i saw a guy and a girl by the door entrance, and the girl waved at me. I had to triple take sia, fuck my contact lense lah so blurry.
Aku tengok pe tengok.. eh ni budak starbucks ke. Sape ni diorang ni.. aku kenal ke? Eh SIAPE sia ni lambai pat aku?
Then i took one step closer and screamed (kinda): OH MY GOD!! OOHH MYYY GOD!!!!!!

HAHA! I was fucking suprised lah! Like hardcored surprised!
It was shimzy and sunnyboy! HAHA! I missed them SOOOO much! I quickly hugged shimzy then told i'll be right back with them ar, cos im in the middle of closing. Then Fiqo said "Siala kau cakap oh my god mcm ade orang mati depan kau sia!" HAHAHAHAHAAA.
Then Boss came out of the backroom and say "ASAL NI ASAL NI?" Then he saw my friends.. "Yak ALLAH aku ingatkan APE TADI" Haha. That bad.

I didnt get to talk much with them, cos alot of closing stuff to do. But it was really really nice seeing them. No they didnt came to see me or anything. Shimzy said they were like around there, then she said she saw someone who look like me inside the store. Then it was me! So she came to say hi. Sunnyboy was from closing, still wearing cbtl polo T. Heh.

HAIYAH. I MISS CBTL SIA. HAIZ.

You know, actually Boss isnt that bad. He's actually ok. Im not trying to big-talk but its true, thats bcos i have had 100 times worse managers working with me before. Like damn damn dammit worse ones. That i could cry about. Maybe its just that, or im probably immune to such behaviour, its just pennies to me. Or maybe its to early to say. Nyeh~

This month i cant shop. Not even enough for my necess. Actually i cant shop ever. HAHA. My pay is that puny. Pay has arrived, but bcos i bought yg's birthday gift, this month i couldnt save up anything.
ITS OK NUNU. Next month can save K. Yeap. I hope so. I actually pathethically feel sorry for myself that i cant even buy a mascara this month, and im eyeing that eyeshadow pallette at JP innuovi or however u spell it lah eh.
And thats the only thing i wanted this month! A MASCARA! Can somebody out there buy me a mascara? I know i can buy silky girl cheap2 one. But i want volumic, and any volumic ones are duh-ly more than $20. That i know of lah.
And the eyeshadow palette lah, but its not important of course, and its something i'll have to save for slowly.
And dont talk about a laptop lah. I can cry just thinking when the fuck i can get one. NO i dowant to hutang courts which i know i actually can. But i cannot imagine myself paying for something that would eventually PIAK within 2 years and still paying it for 4 years. WTF. NO NO thats not NUNU.
NO HUTANGS. Hidop SELAMAT OK GENGS.
I wanna do a sideline job. But i dono what! My shifts are unpredictable.
OH I KNOW. Buat kan homework budak la salle. HAHA. I used to do that.
ANYBODY KNOWS an art student that needs help in their work let me know. HEHE.
Its ok i wont tell anybody. :P

I especially dont agree when someone claims that the work is theirs, but it is actually not lah. Can you imagine, taking a friend's portfolio, then you use it to apply yourself to the school, and you got it? Alongside self-claiming that they wanted to put you in second year after seeing said portfolio, but you modestly turn down and accepted to go for your first year foundation? But the fact is, you cant draw FOR FUCK? True story.

I once did a cd cover, and bcos i didnt have much time, i used someone else's design and i manipulate it and change it here and there, but i definitely didnt feel good AT ALL about it. And true enough i got a C. Hell la, even if i got an A oso i feel crappy sia. Its someone else work what. How can you gloat with someone else's art piece. FREAKO.

I actually meant to blog a little. HEH.

HAIZ. I am a failure in life. Thats what i am. No doubt. If only. If only.

But whatever. Too late now. I can only give out my best in what im doing now, somehow someway, i could excel in that line. Who knows.

Im very envious OK people who are schooling. I wanna go to school too! Like a full time school. Not fucking part time. But nope i cant. Must help mum, must help myself. Must help.

HAIYA FUCK LIFE LAH.

And im hungry. AND THIRSTY.

Oh yah. Must remind myself to go to the doctor next mth to pick some pills bcos i have this SHIT skin disease, and i dono whats it called but the doctor said its FUNGI. FUNGI EH. And its ALOT OK! Once it went up to my neck, and i think it almost reaches my face. Its like, a leapord having rashes.

OK WHATEVER. Now 5am in the morning oredi.

SEE ARH! NO LIFE.