Ms. Mediocre

Im not in a good mood today. I dont know why. I just feel like crying. For no particular reason but for some particular reason. I hope its the period thing. I feel depressed. I feel like i fail in alot of things. I cant shop. My pay is so small. I cant sing like i used to. Theres alot of people out there that draws better than me. I feel so fat. I feel ugly. I am fat. I have shit for hair. My eyes blur fast when i wear contacts. I look like shit without make-up. I cant even afford the eyeshadow palette i wanted. Let alone a laptop. I want a laptop. But i cant afford it. Bcos i need to save. I need to help mum. I feel pressured. I let people step on my head at work. I dont know why. I just feel pressured. I think yg doesnt like me being fat. I dont have money to buy new clothes. I have a FUCKING skin disease. I lost alot of my friends. Bcos they either suck or they just too busy to hang out with me. Or too busy meeting different sorts of guys. Or just too busy being obnoxious. They can fuck off. FUCK OFF. Fuck you. I am so pathethic. And i dont know why.