i feel better now. i feel more relaxed. actually im forcing myself to be relaxed. i dont want to endanger myself with more stress. please huda.
i wish i have one more mc for tomoro. i really dont feel like working. i dont feel like being at home either. i wana sit sumwhere and just be stress free. preferably with bebe. so i can sit and talk nice stuff with him like his stars and his universe. i love it when he talks about those kind of stuff. i miss you bebe. ive been thinking about you the whole day.
thank u yan, fiq and sani for helping me yesterday. the pain. omg. was so so so unbearable. pls god dont let me experience that again. i do not wish to go thru that kind of torture anymore.
and today. well, today. whatever. i think everyone is pretty fucked up and they can all go fuck themselves. like seriously fuck off from my face, my sight, my fuckin area and my fuckin space. you're not helping at all. so fuck the flying fuck off from my fuckin face you fuckin understand. and dont you fuckin dare talk to me all of you, bcos im not going to talk to you either you fucked up shit all of you.
and if tomoro, anyone fuckin dare make me angry i swear to fuckin god i will fuck them up till they fuck themselves up until they theyre so fucked up.
its 1.02am. i really dont feel like sleeping. i dont feel like waking up at 4.30am. i dont feel like working till 4pm. i really really need some good rest. omg. pls. pls pls.
good nite huda.
Ninja SB-OF
