Im still sad today. Not the crying type sad. Just a sunken feeling in my chest. I felt intimidated. I dont want to turn it to anger. Its just useless that way.
I kept thinking about the past. The days where i just sit and stare feeling as useless as a rock. Those days where i dont know what i was doing, the problems that i faced, the times where i struggled to breath easy. Those were the hell days. Maybe i can call that phase, a depression. And im afraid it would happen again. Please please dont let it happen. I'd kill myself.
Ninja SB-OF
