I resulted into blogging down simple thoughts lately, into this cute underlined book made of recycling paper. Dont know hell why i have two blogs to keep and the recycling book isnt even gonna be private. Some idiot is bound to find it and read it. Better yet, tell the whole world. *roll eyes*.
So, i dont know what the hell is going on in my life right now. Its quite messy. Actually its very messy, except for my lovelife, my other-stuff-life is going down the drain.
I dont know why the jolly hell i havent been tracking my spendings. I used to be so meticulous and exact in my spendings and money-managing. Its not like i overspend.. which i probably did i think but i dont know WHY i just cant be bothered counting anymore. What the hell happen to me?!
And my worklife. Yesterday, (without any doubt its going to happen someday, and it happened yesterday, 10 points for me) i had a huge fight with my manager. I shall not label it emotional though i did cry at the last part. Mostly i cried bcos i have a O.manager with fermented oranges for brains. I cry, bcos i was angry. Not bcos i was sad. You know. I dont care if i was being unreasonable bcos NO i wasnt being unreasonable. My mind was fully clean and clear and never wish to fight with that idiot. I am, without a doubt, someone who have high volume of tolerance. A great deal of patience screwed inside me. No doubt at all. But that asshole provoked me. I swear to god, my almighty god, he provoked me. And i was determined to shut my damn mouth and do not wish (at all, never ever) to open it. But he pried it open annnd we ended almost shouting at each other in the middle of the outlet, with only the cashier to stop us from clawing at each other.
WELL he just HAD to open his stupid mouth didnt he? In the end, he succesfully made the situation to look like i was the one with an attitude problem and HE is a manager that just wants the best for me and CARE for my best interests. Well, suck my fucking dick if do ever have one bcos he's just full of bullshit.
One thing in mind ladies and gentleman, i DO NOT have an attitude problem. I strongly agree that i do NOT. Nor am i in denial. Bcos i just fucking do not have an attitude problem. Why oh WHY oh saint God Why, when other staff have REAL attitude problem, he waved it away? Whereas I, who have been provoked, was accused to be having an attitude problem. OMG. Is it bcos i look like a minah? Omg. Here we go again? People stereotyping bcos i have dyed hair? You know what, its all bullfuckingshit bcos no matter what good you do, no matter how intelligent you are, if you have dyed hair and your face looks like a damn minah, people STILL stereotype.
So, i tried to shut him up. By the time we were inside the pantry and he was SCREAMING at me. And you know what, i wasnt even screaming at all. If i didnt know what else to say i would have blown my head off and shouted curses and vulgarities. But Nooo. My head is thank god still attached and i KNOW what i was saying. Unfortunately, people like him do not understand english. And cant even spell the word slimy or employment (true story).
So in the end, i gave up trying to educated the bullcock apek manager, and surrendered by saying sorry and i was stress bcos i was.. well.. stress. Well, he bought the story and so i went home with HIM thinking that everything between me and him is fine.
Well, of course its NOT FINE BCOS TODAY I AM STILL ANGRY. My perception is, Today angry Tomoro fine. But i dont think this prophecy applies to that idiot. Bcos he really made me really damn fucking angry.
SO, if it wasnt for my mother i would have flung my apron, throw my shoes at his face and quit yesterday. But of course, my head was still attached to my body right? So i was still able to think RaTionALLy. Cos my mother needs money. Bcos another idiot in the family decided to NOT give my mother her earnings. SO.
Somehow, someway, i will and i shall quit from that place. Bcos i am NOT going to wait for him to be transferred or whatever. Transfer, get another job i dont know. Guthrie is my heart you know. He just came and messed it up for me. And you know what, i didnt even hate him like to the core. He was just fine for a O.Manager. But that one little thing that he 's got that is SO irritating. AND I CANT STAND IT.
Honey asked me to relax and calm down (just bcos my honey is so sweet) and tell me to just ignore him. Yes i will. But, im not going to go away without giving him hell first. YOU JUST SEE WHAT IM GOING TO DO.
The end.
Ninja SB-OF
