Ok... going ... into.. hiatus...
right... about...........................
now.
Bye.

300 photos dono go where. Up my ass agaknye.

Went out with azryl, shadiq & fitri. We caught Ghosts of Girlfriends Pasts at Vivo. It was ok. It was good. Could be better. I dont know.
I'd really like very much to blog happy today but im mostly bummed out.
I already envisioned myself uploading photos now in my blog and facebook.
But since the stupid SD card would very much love to have a CARD ERROR.
I lost 300 photos maybe more i dono.. but HELLO 300 photos oi.
You know its like, whats the fucking point of it all if photos keep dissapearing.
Seriously whats the fucking point of trying so hard to take nice photos when you know your hardrive, your PC or your STUPID SD CARD would breakdown.
Its not so much of a big deal though. i got over it. Just a bit frustrated i guess. Like..
you ask yourself again, WHATS THE POINT OF HAVING A CAMERA.
You know?
So now, photos can fuck themselves and i dont give a horse shit if they decided to magically dissapear for the HUNDRETH TIME. SO THEY CAN FUCK OFF.
So.
At least i caught a movie today. Been so long. I still havent watch Transformers yet and i think i prolly end up waiting for the DVD to come out. I just got this feeling.
Furthermore i am fucking PISSED at a certain someone but like everything else, i do not want to make it a biggie. Cos u just know other people have more biggies than you.
SO ITS NO BIGGIE. I feel like getting a rock and throwing at that person while exclaiming ' DIE YOU STUPID SHIT DIE!'.
Along with other news... No more Fadher as we all know it. The news is still sinking in, so im very sad now but i know i'll be sadder later. I wish i could have worked more with him. At least now we have Sani and Amin. And if Tony wasnt so good, i'd prolly just stone him to death too alongside PKMH.
And to my brother Ryl, dont be sad. Its no biggie. People have loved and lost and at one point of time you will experience alot of that. But its that kind of experience that makes you build yourself better and think more mature. Dont hassle. 17 only geng and thinking so much! hahaa.. when i was 17 i was ... let me think.. oh yeah i was going out to multiple IRC gatherings, befriending mats and minahs all over the world, prancing around like im some hot jambu shit, got a metalhead for a boyfriend, got skinhead friends for other illegal activities and it was a carefree feeling back then. Like, you dont have any money but you somehow can still go out and prance around like a lost soul wearing a pink tutu with mismatched ballet slippers.
i dont know what im talking about.
But that was before i met bebe Okeh! Mad, young love geng at 17! *wink wink wonky*
So yeah.

And yana, i am finishing the book you're lending me. The one you just lended to me like 3 hours ago? *giggle* And guess what! I didnt even read the title and author properly. Wait i go get it.
Its... Can You Keep A Secret by Sophie Kinsella.
Its been a long time since a book made me laugh hard. Like really crazy hard. Like hyena kind of laughter. No im kidding.
But this book is REALLY GOOD. And im not sleeping till the last page so yeah. Im going to msg you yana once i finish the book. And prolly read it over again.
You know i just noticed, besides me... only Sofi reads storybooks alot in the house. I mean, i prolly win the trophy la, cos i sometimes je see Sofi rolling around the living room with a book. But others are like.. WTH. BOOKS ARE THE SHIT K. I dont understand why people dont read books. But hey thats just me.

End of with a good note now. Night chaps.

Aku dah malas.
Tak arh seriously.
Dulu.. fanatic arh. Then lame2 dah relek.
Skrg..
kene LAGIK RELEK.
MALAS ARH. Ape nak jadi, JADI ARH.

Lame2 agaknyer telinga aku boleh kluar darah non-stop.

The Big 5.

Im sorry i didnt wish you earlier. I was preoccupied by things that blocked my brain.

Many more years to come and honey, i'll still be here for you bcos i will always be crazy about you and no matter how good we are at pissing each other off (hehe), i love you to death. And i mean really really to death.

Peace out Weeeeee.

im not ready to talk to anyone let alone anything yet. alot have been in my thoughts these past couple of years seeing different flaws, theories and intentions. I have tried many times to bolt the door shut and paste a happy face. bcos that is me. im pretty good at faking. i may not be patient but im very forgiving. bcos you cant think bad of someone for too long. its never healthy. i dont hold grudges and vengeance is just a word i would say but never an action i would do. but somehow they succeed in bringing me down. i dont wish to be angry bcos it will tire me and i have been there. i can only be upset and keep it inside me. and if it bursts, it bursts inside bcos outside is never an option. i may not be the bestest friend or girlfriend, may not be the bestest sister or daughter. but i know i did my part in carrying out the responsibilites of each and every title. and however hard days may go by, i will never stop trying or reminding myself. bcos no one is perfect.

New makeup. WHOOOOPEEEEEEEEE.

Maybe i should blog something meaningful once in a while to balance all the crap that i have blogged out so far. Heee.

I like reading all the footnotes. You really cant help it. They catch your attention whether you like it or not. Its really interesting. I like it better in English. Cos i cant understand a damn thing if its in Malay. Seriously!

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Then he further asked, " When will the Hour (Doomsday) be established?"
Our Messenger replied, "The answerer has no better knowledge than the questioner. But I will inform you about its portents:
1) When a slave (lady) gives birth to her master.
2) When the shepherds of black camels start boasting and competing with others in the construction of higher buildings. And the Hour is one of the five things which nobody knows except Him.

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There was a Christian who embraced Islam and read the Surahs, and wrote the revelations for the Prophet. Later on he reverted to Christianity again, and he used to say: "Muhammad knows nothing but what i have written for him." Then God caused him to die, and the people buried him, but in the morning they saw that the earth had thrown his body out...
They said, "This is the act of Muhammad and his companions They dug the grave of our companion and took his body out of it because he had run away from them."
They again dug the grave deeply for him and buried him.
But in the morning they again saw that earth had thrown the body out.
They dug the grave for him as deep as they could but in the morning they again saw that the earth has thrown his body out.
So they believed that what had befallen him was not done by human beings and had to leave him thrown on the ground.

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I got alot more!

Okeh so.. gotta go clean the kitchen (yak allah malasnyerrrr) then kopek bawang (urghhh lagik malassssss) cos my mum off to jemputan for a bit and she wants to see the kitchen sparkly shining. And then go siap to meet Yg for movie (arh yang ni aku tak malas!!)

And wear my NEW MAKE UP WEEEE. Sounds like alot but i actually only bought a new Fasio mascara which is SO CHEAP lah dey $14.50! Wanna try new mascara.. must explore the world. Bourjois clubbing mascara is still THE SHIZZLE.
And a.. BOURJOIS TurKOISE EYESHADOW PENCIL. ITS SHIMMERY.

Girls like shimmery things. YIPPEEEE.

Im going to miss you.. no really.

I still really really cannot believe that the great MJ has gone. A couple of months ago i became obsessed with his music videos suddenly (smooth criminal rocks balls. No really.) and downloaded his songs that minus off the music so that way i can only hear his vocals... which is really really damn good. Duh. And he rocks balls. He always have had rocked my balls long time ago anyway.
It was actually this morning that i woke up and i was still lying like a swine on my bed and staring up the ceiling, when Nana who was using the comp just right beside me immediately said: eh kau tau michael jackson dah mati tau.
Then i was like.. huh? ape sia. Kau tol tak tol.
Then she was like.. ak ar la.. kat msn Today ni ade tunjok.. bla bla blaa..
Then i was still staring up ceiling but i was already thinking about:
His Face. Cos i heard he's got skin cancer or something. From all that surgery.
His upcoming concerts in London which is like a freakin month away, and how all those people need to get their money back cos they paid bullshikas for great seats.
His kids. Whats going to happen to them sey poor babies!
How i heard he converted to muslim but not so sure about that.
How he's going to answer the kubur questions.
How people are going to say what a legend he is after years of torturing him with bullshikas molestation crap and how wacko he looks and how crazy he is and bla3..
which turned out true of course the minute i googled him on the internet.
People are such shitheads.
How great he was bcos his Smooth Criminal music video really gave me multiple orgasms. Well not literally of course.
How his songs and his hopes of helping the children all over the world how nice and kind and harmless he was and how gentle he was when he talks.
And how unbelievable and sudden his death is until i had to get my ass up myself from my bed and quickly firefoxed to see whether its all true while the back of mind is screaming: IT CANT BE TRUE. WHAT THE FRAP.

Yeah.
But its true so yeah. Im going to miss him.. no really.

And.. back to reality. Where.. my pay has arrived and tomoro..
im going...
well not really tomoro..its more like.. 8 hours later..
im going..

SHOPPINK!!!!

Im going to buy that extremely turquoise baby doll top. SO SUE ME WEEEE.

What.

Someone, anyone.. please..
hand me a tissue.. a napkin! A kooka? Anything!
Bcos.. i need to fuckin...

GAG.

End.

Miss em shows..

i miss this show..

but i found this. siala. nostalgic giler eh. cos i think i was like i dunno.. still damn little. cos i cant recall the name of the show. but i think i watched this like everyday.